Plus, I made myself stand and sing during worship, and discovered that there is supernatural at work during the act of singing praise -- by the end of the song I meant what I was singing, even though I didn't know and didn't especially like the song. It became real by me stepping out in faith and doing it when I didn't feel it. --and then Greg Burns preached on that very thing. He said there are three codes to unlock access to all of God's gifts; faith, adversity (mainly, praising and having faith during trial), and unity.
It's awesome to me how God has used Spencer in my life to change my image of black men. Now I tend to see them as father figures rather than (as I was previously taught) extra-sexual agressors. I love my spiritual Daddy.