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strange feelings

icon: "overwhelmed (the character Keenan from "Playing By Heart," with hands over their face covering their eyes and head tilted back)"

I've had a very weird day, extremely strong emotions about lots of things. Feeling a little insecure about absolutely everything. Feel unspecial, unsexy, unimportant, lost, useless. No good reason.

The only thing I can think of is that I am very scared of school this semester. I feel the need to take a class that is really intense and scares me. I don't think that this fear is rational? But last semester I felt on the verge of losing my mind from stress for a solid month. I don't think that would happen again because my classes all seem to be well organized but now I am afraid I will forget some of the billion assignments. And one of the classes is online which is so easy for me to forget about. Ugh. Need to reset my brain.

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ecosopher ══╣╠══
Do you think a wall planner or something might help? I find I forget things when I'm overwhelmed (and also worry about forgetting things, which contributes to the overwhelmedness!) and having it all there written where I can see it helps.

Sorry you're feeling low. I hope tomorrow is a better day.
belenen ══╣effervescent╠══
I think my intuition was telling me "DON'T take that class!" -- as soon as I dropped it I felt a billionty better.
esotsm: clem - book
delicatexflower ══╣esotsm: clem - book╠══

*picks up your chin* hey, you are .loved. you are .beautiful. you are overwhelmed and scared -- that's only normal. you are doing a lot with your life, but you must remember WHY you are doing this. it is to .better. yourself and your life. you will have moments of stress, headaches and bullshit, but you will also have good times. take each day as they come bel <3 if its a bad day, there's always tomorrow. oh, i forgot the hug :P *hugs softly*
belenen ══╣loving╠══
*smiles at you* thank you friend *hugs back*
bichoose ══╣╠══
The beginning of the year is perhaps always so..even at my age the new year stretched out before me gives me the shivers in this now mad world.. perhaps not even King Canute would live in now…take care...
belenen ══╣garrulous╠══
lilywolfsolomon ══╣╠══
I felt lost and useless last night and part of the day too, my love. <3 When I let my body process it a lot of that transformed a lot faster than I thought it would. I hope you feel better soon! This is a new semester, not the last one, breathe through it, rest your brain, you'll make it to the other side in glorious form.
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belenen ══╣tree elder╠══
thanks for the encouragement!
B&W Cas
ssjspider ══╣B&W Cas╠══
Here are a couple links to some resources that will hopefully help you.


I love this place (despite the "grow the fuck up" bit which sounds kinda demeaning, it gives a lot of awesome advise!)




belenen ══╣giving╠══
*hugs back*
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
Ah, I'm in the same space-- of just being "off" the past couple days. I think it's just a bit of dread about the upcoming semester, but in my case definitely some PMS too :/ I hope we both get out of this soon!
belenen ══╣wanderlust╠══
I'm out! how are you?
kmiotutsie ══╣╠══
Also out!! :D
meri_sielu ══╣jackdaw╠══
I really hope you feel better soon! <3
belenen ══╣artless╠══
I do feel better now, thanks for the well-wishes!
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belenen ══╣loving╠══
*happily accepts hugs* thanks for the empathy
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