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dream: reject commands, organize stuff, see art & flirt, go to party & witness sex, rescue recycling

icon: "dreamy (painting of a person in a cage, reaching out with swirls of color and light coming from their hand)"

So, I failed to keep my streak going, so I'm starting my 22-day over again. Here's a dream from January 7th:

Dreamed about living with my parents, a small child escaping abuse with my help, they also drove a car. M told me to do something in a rude way and I refused, they got angry, I got angrier, screamed at them in front of their guests. I went to my room and worked on rearranging my stuff- I had like 10 pairs of boots (in waking life I have one pair of daily shoes and an interview pair and that's it: I do not own boots). I went outside and next door someone had hung a big print of two women of color kissing, and I wanted to know who lived there. An Indian woman who was pretty butch came up and put an arm around me and I asked who lived there (their aunt and niece) and who the artist was (Stan something). They were flirty with me, we both went outside (out from under the awning I was under, where the print was) to the party and lots of people were having public sex, in sometimes very odd ways (a pregnant woman climbed on a cage that was full of people and spread thier legs as all of those people started kissing/licking/ stroking). I talked with some people and watched some, and the butch person came up and I petted their arm. When they left I went inside and started tidying the kitchen, sorting the fridge and pulling the recycling from the trash.

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lilywolfsolomon ══╣╠══
Do you have any idea what 10 pairs of boots might mean to you? I'm also very interested in that image of the woman on the cage! Was there an emotional tone in this dream? Was there anything you were wanting or did watching the scene bring anything up for you? I notice a lot of desire from various people in the dream and from you maybe a sort of engaged but passive curiosity?

*If* it were my dream, and I think this is aside from this particular theme coming up for me now, I'd say it had something to do with owning my own desires and not what other people desire of me especially when those desires do not respect or honour me. Getting angrier and angrier points for me to a difficulty with walking away from seeking to satisfy others, a difficulty with just saying no, and choosing to nurture *myself*. Trusting that when I let go of what is not fulfilling in interactions others will respect that (or that I can stay in my own and go elsewhere when they don't and that tension in those relationships will not then escalate to all hell). I notice a sort of pattern of being asked rudely to do something by M, refusing, and not being honoured in what *I* wanted; followed by tidying my stuff, my clothes, my boots, the way I walk in the world. Boots being a way of standing in my own power. Boots have a great stomp, a powerful kick, and keep out mud and shit like nothing else (and mud and shit in their rightful place are full of nourishment, and sometimes it's delicious to run mud between my toes, but I don't want them on my feet when I haven't asked for it). Followed by observing others following their authentic desires, but mostly just observing, and then tidying up the kitchen, my source of nourishment. And recognizing resources I had forgotten about, the capacity to transform/transmute, to recycle. So it's like two reflections on desire and sacral/solar plexus stuff each followed by intermissions of tidying. Thanks for sharing!!!
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Expect to find curse words, nudity, (occasionally explicit) talk of sex, and angry ranting, but NEVER slurs or sexually violent language. I use TW when I am aware of the need and on request.