Sorry for my absence; things have been wild but they should be settling now for at least a few weeks.
One of the major aspects of life taking my thoughts and energy lately has been my friendship with Kei-Won-Tia. I won't go into details for fear of betraying confidence, but we had a major, two-week clash over what it meant to be open, and then they expressed a need that I cannot meet and still be a whole person, so we can't be friends right now, and not in the future unless they no longer need that thing I cannot do.
It made me realize that I have a need from all of my friends, which I am not sure if I have expressed recently or clearly. I need to be able to trust that you are not going to lie to me -- that you are not going to deliberately deceive me. That is a dealbreaker for me. My dealbreakers are:
3) manipulative behavior
4) destructiveness of self and/or others and/or living things (see original post for details)
and mapped out with more specificity: my minimum requirements for friendly acquaintances and actual friends / my ideal friend's qualities.
Hopefully I'll write something of more substance soon.