May 2019
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taking a week hiatus from reading facebook


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So I decided to take a week-long break from facebook and literally less than 10 minutes later I automatically went to load it. I had already completely logged out and told fb to forget my device, so I didn't ruin my intention, but I can already tell that this is going to be both a struggle, and hopefully enlightening.

I don't think my posting to fb makes my life worse in any way, but checking my feed does. I have stripped it down to just good people but it's an ADHD/anxiety trap no matter what -- even when I have JUST scrolled through for an HOUR and then closed it I will open it again without thinking. I just get stuck and I waste my life. Topaz will occasionally get frustrated with me or worried about me because sometimes it's like a compulsion and I have to put my phone in another room to stop looking at fb.

So far (it has been a day and a half) I have realized that I use fb to self-soothe when I am feeling stressed, because it is an effective distraction when there is a lot I haven't seen yet. But it is not at all effective when I have checked it recently, which is most times when I look at it. So I'd say more than half the time I open it and scroll through looking for new content and don't find any but keep looking anyway. It is a really bad first step for coping with stress, because it usually doesn't help yet prevents me from trying something else.

If I can reclaim my time and get more writing done by not reading facebook, then I may restrict myself to only using it when I am at my computer. That way I can still keep up with people occasionally but not get automatically snared. At this point that new rule is looking very likely. The real test will be when I next ride the bus without being able to check facebook.

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feladrone ══╣╠══
"it's an ADHD/anxiety trap no matter what -- even when I have JUST scrolled through for an HOUR and then closed it I will open it again without thinking. I just get stuck and I waste my life."

I've had major problems with this too, except with Instagram instead of Facebook. It was never a problem up until they switched to a non-linear feed. Before I would check Insta once or twice a day and scroll until I got to the end of everything new, and then I could close the app no problem. And then they introduced the endless-scrolling thing using a special algorithm.

It *really* is addicting. Honestly I wish it were illegal, it feels like brainwashing. Users don't just see what their friends post, users see what FB/Insta wants them to see.

I have to actively stop myself from scrolling down my feed. Instead I just manually check the pages that I like, using the search bar. Even then it's addicting though, and I do sometimes end up scrolling down my feed. I know I should quit, but there are so many artists on Insta that I really love. Blegh. Instagram used to be my favourite social medium, hands down. Now it's really a love-hate thing. I love the people I follow, I hate absolutely everything else about it.

(Wow this kind of turned into a rant, sorry, haha. What I was really trying to get at, is I absolutely related to this. I wish I had the strength to go on an Instagram hiatus.)
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belenen ══╣antagonistic╠══
oh god, yeah, same for me. instagram became just useless to me when they did that. I hate it SO MUCH. at least on facebook you can change it back!

I feel you! we need someone to create a view portal that puts stuff in chronological order so we can get around this horrible mess.
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