May 2019
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taking a week hiatus from reading facebook


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So I decided to take a week-long break from facebook and literally less than 10 minutes later I automatically went to load it. I had already completely logged out and told fb to forget my device, so I didn't ruin my intention, but I can already tell that this is going to be both a struggle, and hopefully enlightening.

I don't think my posting to fb makes my life worse in any way, but checking my feed does. I have stripped it down to just good people but it's an ADHD/anxiety trap no matter what -- even when I have JUST scrolled through for an HOUR and then closed it I will open it again without thinking. I just get stuck and I waste my life. Topaz will occasionally get frustrated with me or worried about me because sometimes it's like a compulsion and I have to put my phone in another room to stop looking at fb.

So far (it has been a day and a half) I have realized that I use fb to self-soothe when I am feeling stressed, because it is an effective distraction when there is a lot I haven't seen yet. But it is not at all effective when I have checked it recently, which is most times when I look at it. So I'd say more than half the time I open it and scroll through looking for new content and don't find any but keep looking anyway. It is a really bad first step for coping with stress, because it usually doesn't help yet prevents me from trying something else.

If I can reclaim my time and get more writing done by not reading facebook, then I may restrict myself to only using it when I am at my computer. That way I can still keep up with people occasionally but not get automatically snared. At this point that new rule is looking very likely. The real test will be when I next ride the bus without being able to check facebook.

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fairytaleguise ══╣╠══
It's a real struggle. I've had issues with compulsive FB scrolling too. Lately I've installed a FB blocker on Google Chrome that lets me access my groups but not my feed (I need the groups for networking and biz support), so now I only see it on my laptop, which helps.

I hope you get the benefits you are hoping for from this and it makes a positive change in your life.
belenen ══╣╠══
I have had it blocked on my computer but for a while now I have been mostly checking it on my phone so that stopped being useful! but so far being logged out on my phone has saved me.
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