May 2018
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inexplicably bad at life right now, frustrated and confused by it


I've not been good at things for the past few weeks and I don't know why, but fb's "on this date" thing has me aware that I was also in a bad way like this last year. It's not SAD I don't think because I have been outside enough, and it has been warm often enough. Maybe it's just that last April I was really intensely sad and stressed and my body is remembering that. But everything has been hitting me so hard.

I haven't been able to motivate to do things. My living room is full of random crap from Topaz' move (some things I had left there but mostly stuff I inherited or stuff I am holding on to for Topaz). My upstairs hallway looks like a closet exploded on the floor. I haven't managed to plan my outfits for work and I have hardly done any writing or reading on LJ. What the fuck happened?? I was doing SO WELL for a while. Now I'm just barely keeping up with normal things.

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callmebee ══╣╠══
I have seasonal patterns like that in my life too. Sometimes its associated with an event/stressful period from the past, but mostly I think it's just the cyclic nature of life.

I don't know how much I believe in the "woo woo" aspect of Astrology, but I do think there's something to the seasonal aspect of it. Aries is an impossible sign for me to be comfortable in while we're under it, and Taurus isn't much better.

Spring is NOT my season.

It takes until halfway through June for me to feel like I can human again properly.
webgirluk ══╣╠══
I hope life has become easier for you and you're feeling less overwhelmed. I'm very behind on LJ but I'll try and come back during the week for a more thorough catch up.
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ragnarok_08 ══╣ATLA ★ the blind bandit╠══
I hope that things get easier for you soon.
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